i hate making decisions. & i hate the concequences they lead too. i hate the way those decisions control my life. & i hate the way i become subservient to each decision i make.
bang.
i hate people who screw with other people's lives. & so i hate them for being selfish jerks. i hate people who screw others just cos they're screwed. & again i hate them for being selfish jerks.
bang.
i hate the way i run away from everything. & i hate the way i shy away from challenges. but i hate the way i hurt if i take on those burdens, & i hate the way i feel so helpless through it all.
have a good laugh. somehow its getting tougher&tougher each day to pull off that smile. i mean, its what we all do; dont we? i feel like shooting someone with a pointy edged compass dammit. and laugh at everything that oozes out. haha, im feeling all sadistic again.